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Eagle Born to Fly: Finding Life Beyond
Depression by Sharon C. Matthies
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Part 3 - Getting Out of There
Reaching Some Semblance of Normalcy
The morning after the overdose became the dividing line in my life.
Although it didn’t make an immediate and obvious difference
to all outward appearances, deep within me there has always been
a clear delineation. I liken life before the overdose as having
lived in perpetual Good Friday mode. Life after the overdose has
been more like living in Resurrection mode.
Despite the life-altering epiphany of possibility that morning,
it was still a long, uphill struggle trying to climb far enough
out of that hellhole to feel safe again. For a while it seemed that
for every positive step I made forward, I slid two or three steps
back. And always in the back of my mind was the fear of sliding
all the way back there.
Dr. Reynolds was honest with me when I asked him about the statistical
possibility of sliding back. He told me that people who go in as
deep as I did rarely make it back. And those that do make it out
rarely stay out. I remember him saying that he hadn’t seen
anybody come back as fast, as healthy and as whole as I seemed to
have. At first, both of us were somewhat skeptical that I could
stay out indefinitely.
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